Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Sleep


Nights are so much fun.
I used to agree with Eddy.
“The best time of the day,”
(He cites each night when it’s time to go to bed.)
First of all,
I can’t seem to get to bed at 11.
On good nights, like last night,
It’s around 11:20.
Hooked on TV,
DeRay comes up around 1 or . . . .
He can’t comprehend why I can’t sleep
while I’m worried he’s collapsed on the couch
and needs resuscitation;
Or why his fiddling around in the bedroom,
brushing his teeth, stumbling over the garbage can;
a loud beep when he turns his oxygen machine on;
then bounding and wiggling to get settled in bed
bothers me.
Suddenly he’s snoring (lightly with his sleep apnea mask on).
Can I get to sleep?
Twenty or so terse naps in six or seven hours.
Ice packs.  Hot pad.  Killer knees.
The inevitable bathroom breaks.
Twitching, turning; - therapeutic?
Then I wonder why I’m tired all the time.
Whatever happened to going to sleep
and waking up rested 6 or 7 hours later?
Blessed bygone era.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Church Hymn Doctrine and Other Things


This past week, DeRay and I watched Quartet.
The plot takes place in Beecham House, a retirement home for former professional musicians, patterned after the real-life Casa di Riposo per Musicisti founded by Giuseppe Verdi.
Reg, Wilf and Cissy are retired opera singers who often worked together in the past; among other residents are Cedric Livingstone, a former director, and diva Anne Langley. All the guests in the retirement home continue to be engaged in their former professions in one way or the other, including lecturing and initiating young people to music.
Finances threaten closure of the home but proceeds from a yearly gala concert on Verdi's birthday hold hope for a continuation of the place. However, Cedric has been rather desperate due to the fact that some of the most prominent singers have either died or decided not to participate at all. Reg, Wilf and Cissy, were in the cast of a very highly rated recording of the opera Rigoletto, which includes a famous quartet for soprano, mezzo-soprano, tenor, and baritone. This version is very prominent amongst opera buffs as THE Rigoletto of the post-war era.
One day, Reg is shocked to find his former wife Jean Horton, the missing soprano of the Rigoletto recording, turning up to live at Beecham House.  Jean is played by Maggie Smith.  Reg is played by Tom Courtenay.
Being impressed with the movie, when Charmaine’s Writing Group was meeting on Friday, I decided to pull some of our musical experiences from the past and read them:
 As it happened, Brooke was scheduled to play with the Utah Symphony in Abravanel Hall on my dad’s birthday, March 21 (1997).  It seemed a long ways from the sheep herd to symphony hall; yet I think Brooke would be perfectly happy at the sheep herd and I think Daddy enjoyed good music.  By coincidence, it appeared the concert itself was in Daddy’s honor.  They played The Cowboys Overture; then the Suite from The Big Country, and On the Trail from the Grand Canyon Suite.
The featured guest artist was seventy-two year old Chet Atkins, the country-Western guitarist credited with single-handedly rescuing country music and bringing it into the modern era with his eclectic tastes and sensitivity to the new recording technology, some of which he invented.
There was foot stampin’ and clappin’ and Yahooin’ I didn’t ever think I’d see the likes of in Abravanel Hall.  We all joined in singing America the Beautiful.
*
“Why don’t you and Dennis spot $40 and go to the symphony with us tonight?”  DeRay asked his bus aid.
“We don’t do classical, ” Vernetta informs him.
“You don’t do Chet Atkins?”
“Who’s Chet Atkins?”
“You don’t know Chet Atkins?  Don’t you ever watch TV or listen to the radio?  I’ll bet Dennis would know.”
“So,”  DeRay tells me, “we call Dennis (also a bus driver in his retirement) on the phone and asked him if he knows Chet Atkins, and he said, ‘Which bus does he drive?’”
“Not really?” I laughed.
“No, we didn’t call him but that’s what Vernetta said he would say if we called him.”

We were reared on church-hymn doctrine.  I don't remember Mama quoting much scripture, but she often sang:
Let's be kind to one another,
Let us win each other's love,
Let each be a sister, brother,
As the angels are above.
Anyone involved in a quarrel with a friend, unfailingly would hear this message:
Angry words! oh, let them never
From the tongue unbridled slip:
May the heart's best impulse ever
Check them ere they soil the lip.
"Love one another," thus saith the Savior
Children, obey the Father's blest command.
Love is much too pure and holy,
Friendship is too sacred far,
For a moment's reckless folly
Thus to desolate and mar.
Whenever we declined to hold the baby or scolded her for spoiling our things, Mama would sing:
If we knew the baby fingers,
Pressed against the window pane,
Would be cold and stiff tomorrow--
Never trouble us again--
Would the bright eyes of our darling
Catch the frown upon our brow?--
Would the prints of rosy fingers
Vex us then as they do now?

In our old family home, the windows were high and to pacify our toddler, we would hold her up so she could peer out the window on the top half of the door.  Little finger marks were always imprinted on that window.  I treasured them because of the song.  I always was afraid it was written about our door, our window, and our baby.
To ease and enhance our day-to-day toils, we sang the sentimental songs of the church.  In times of extreme sorrow, they helped heal our hearts and offered solace to our souls.  After Daddy was killed, many evenings Mama would quietly go into the front room--a room we hardly ever used or heated--to play the piano and sing the hymns.  Always she sang:
When upon life's billows you are tempest tossed,
When you are discouraged thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessings; name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord has done.
Count your blessings; Name them one by one.
Count your blessings; See what God hath done.
Count your blessings; Name them one by one.
Count your many blessings; See what God hath done.
She sang all four verses; each one seemingly giving her renewed courage and strength to carry on.
We were related to nearly everyone in town and all of us had at many times been in every home in town "visiting with Mama", so we grew up going to funerals as faithfully as we went to church.  Hymns like The Vacant Chair, In the Garden, Oh My Father, My Father Knows, and Sometime We'll Understand, were our testimonies, our succor, our hope, and our abiding faith.
Mama used to sing when she worked.  With the TV, stereo, CD's, boon boxes, tapes, and whateverall, I wonder if this wondrous technique of therapy is vanishing from the civilized world. 
As the years went by and we were unable to conceive a child, I often played on my new Acrosonic and sang:
Why what we long for most of all
So oft evades our eager hand
Why hopes are dashed and castles fall
Sometime, sometime we’ll understand.

When Brent was in the doctoral program, he called and asked DeRay and me what our favorite hymns were.  We had been taking an institute class from Brooke’s favorite teacher and he has explained how each verse of A Poor Wayfaring Man of Grief displays how when you give, you get back more than you ever gave.  I like that concept.  Also, the melody is hauntingly beautiful so I chose that hymn and Brent composed FF A Work for Orchestra in 2 Movements; the first movement is dedicated to his dad with his favorite hymn and the second to me.
Ed and I sing hymns nearly everyday.  I guess our very favorite is How Great Thou Art but one year he got me hooked on Jesus Lover of My Soul.  We also like For the Beauty of the Earth, Ye Elders of Israel, and There Is Sunshine in My Soul Today.  After we’ve been back visiting with Brent and Jan in Missouri, we especially like to sing Adam-ondi-Ahman.
Like I say, I was reared on Church hymn doctrine. 

Thursday, July 17, 2014

2014 Family Reunion at Duck Creek

Setting the stage for our western adventure.  Panguitch.
Visiting with Marilyn's friend, cousin, and classmate, Kathy Pugh Chamberlain.
(Divorced from Jack Chamberlain, the meanest guy in the Valley when I was growing up.
She has a daughter Nancy, named after Jack's mother.)
And then it started to rain.
and rain.

The early days are the best days. . .
Ron the middle of Clare's kitchen.  She brings all this stuff up from Vegas in her little utility trailer.

Plenty of space.  Quiet.  YES! While we watch the rain.
Karen, Norm, DeRay, Eddy and I camp out (in our trailer and motor home--not one tent this year.
Where is Amy?) while the younger ones stay in $500/night cabins with a bathroom for each bedroom,
TV, heat and air conditioning;  what else?
Eating is our #1 entertainment and conversation topic.
Although beautician Karen who never takes a day off, did give me a great hair cut on the mountain.
Lynda checking the downpour from the popups.
Clare got dumped on good!
Ron and Lynda run for the cabins.

Ed's not dumb.  He eats inside.  He doesn't even like to get wet when he's swimming.
Not that they have a lot of snow on the mountain but the trees bend.

Even the pines.

Then the crowds descend.  From Hawaii came Wendy, Brett and Chris holding nephew Heber from Seattle.

OK.  What's so funny?


Kent and Karen Hugh come for the first time in three years.  He has been serving as a Temple President.
BTW, Karen is going to a wound clinic for a sore on her leg that hasn't healed for a year.  Compression and elevation, and it would be nice if she could stay off it but she can't.

Karen Hugh and Marilyn, classmates in Kanab.  Marilyn has lost 81 pounds since last reunion; Karen 45 pounds.

When Bill and Margo the presidents come, the t-shirts emerge.
On the back is a picture of the 12 original children, "Started 66 years ago by this loving family and as Eddy asks, "Do you love me?"  We all answer "YES . . .and the LOVE continues!"
On the front is the Pugh Crest Pugh Family Reunion 1948 - 2014
Duck Lake.  My only walk.

I want to crawl in.  Who built it?
Clare fell down watching the races.  Ice packs cure all.

Karen snuggling granddaughter, Penny, while Marilyn and Clare discuss business.
The chief (and only) star sour dough hotcake-and-biscuit-maker taking a break.
DeRay and I have the dubious distinction of being the oldest male and female, respectively, at the reunion.  DeRay turned 80 this year;
a woman never reveals her age but when Ed complained that he had never been to Maine
where Amy has been for a month,
I retorted: "Neither have I and I'm 100."
"You're approaching 80," he corrects.
A family joke because DeRay was always saying "We're approaching 80."
Sick of him acting like I am the same age he is
when I am two years four months and four days younger,
I took a stand and told him to let me be my own age right up until my birthday.

This picture is for Amy.  She worked with Brenda for the State when they discovered they were cousins.  "I had some cousins who changed their name from Pugh to Hugh."   Lucille on right.
No shortage of cobbler - or anything else!


Eddy, Janet (who had bypass surgery.  Nearly everyone has a diet theory) from North Carolina,
Judy from St. George, and Robby, going to Utah State.
Laughter

Games
Pets are people too.  Lucille's son, Bruce.

All the strong ones help Clare load up her trailer.  Games on hold.
Norm (holding granddaughter) gathers and cuts all the wood for the fire each evening.
Christina, Evie, & Anders from Gilbert, Arizona.

S'mores, hot dogs, of course.  Eddy only watches.


Sunday after most of them left, we went to Cedar Breaks.
















Navajo Lake.
No Amy; No Brent; No kayaking this year.
Bill and Margo invited us for a BBQ ribs and meatballs.
The Last Supper.  Robby, Bill, Margo, DeRay and Ed.
I feel like Maynard Dixon when I see the clouds.  Driving home near Nephi.


It was very hard for me to camp at Duck Creek on Cedar Mountain
and not be able to hike to Mirror Lake, Cascade Falls,
 or my favorite 2-hour hike up over the top.
When we got rained out at camp,
we went for Mexican night to Ogden’s cabin.
Flashbacks of the long hike Brent, Eddy and I took up to the village
and down to Duck Creek Village
where we were still 4 miles from camp.
We asked a woman’s (when she came out of the outhouse)
permission to walk across her land.
It was getting dark and she could see we were in trouble
so she offered to drive us back to camp.
She had a keg of beer between us in the front seat of her pickup.
Eddy and Brent rode in the back.
We’ve always been grateful to her.
I did walk very slowly down to Duck Lake one noisy afternoon
to find peace and solace
but my legs hurt so much all night,
I decided it wasn’t worth it.
Sunday, DeRay, Ed and I drove to Cedar Breaks.
I felt sad when I caught glimpses of the trails
Amy and I hiked only last year.
Exquisite scenery you don’t see from the road or viewpoints.
Also, the hikes Brent and his family,
Amy and I took when we got caught in deluging rain.
To give up my cherished hikes has been a supreme sacrifice for me.
They’ve been my refuge;
My inspiration;
My reason to be there.
(Not being of the tribe.)
My restoration.
To lose that ability is like a slow death;
a sorrow; a grief deep inside my soul.
Then I thought of Lucille.
It took her an hour to walk to the bathroom ½ block from camp;
then she couldn’t open the restroom door.
She’s had both knees replaced;
one twice; a hip replacement;
numerous surgeries on her ankles and feet;
walks with built-up shoes, braces,
using two canes to balance her twisted body.
Additionally,
She’s alone.
Divorced.
Her children in homes of their own.
Her parents were killed along with another couple
in a tragic auto accident
December 1, 1960, leaving their three children
to fend for themselves.
Her younger brother suffered from a brain injury
when he was hit by a car while sledding.
The three siblings faithfully came to reunion each year
Until both Annie (my age) and Milton died too young.
And I complain?