On the Night of the Super Full Moon

Photo by Karla used without permission

The Invisible Entity is selfish.

Selfish is not good.

The Invisible Entity thought:

I am going to disinherit my family.

They do not know I exist.

I send them gifts.

They do not bother to thank me

Or acknowledge the gift in any way.

Sometimes I make a fool of myself and say,

“How did you like the gift?”

The little ones mumble something.

I CAN’T HEAR YOU.

Maybe they cannot hear me

Because I am invisible.

Maybe I just think I talk to them.

The gifts are tangible but

Maybe I am not.

Recently I had surgery.

The nodules they were concerned about

Were benign but they found another small tumor:

Thyroid Carcinoma with Focal Tall Cell Features, 0.8 CM.

We were not prepared for this.

Shock.

No words of comfort.

No hot soup.

Barely a “How are you doing?”

Very few.

What would an invisible entity expect?

Come on.

They do not see me.

They do not hear my heart beating.

I mull this over and over and over.

I should say something.

I should tell them I am hurt.

Then something happened.

And I though,

The Invisible Entity is selfish.

Selfish is not good.

They have their own struggles;

Their own conflicts;

Far bigger than thankless gifts

and cancer.

Forgive me family.