Thursday, January 5, 2012

Care of the Soul


CLOTHESLINE

You don’t really value something
until you’re deprived of it.
Covenants in SunRiver St. George
where the sun shines about 360 days a year,
ban clothes lines anywhere on your property,
including your private patio.
Have they not considered the energy crunch?
Don’t they know dryers wear clothes out?
Waste not; want not.
It rankles my frugal, green, conservative soul.
Here in Fruit Heights,
we had two lines stretched across our patio,
Until the East Winds snapped them.
Hanging clothes, sometime barefoot,
was a pleasant part of my day.


Excerpts from
CARE OF THE SOUL
A Guide for Cultivating Depth and Sacredness in Everyday Life 
By Thomas Moore
            The great malady of the twentieth century, implicated in all of our troubles and affecting us individually and socially, is “loss of soul.”  When soul is neglected, it doesn’t just go away; it appears symptomatically in obsessions, addictions, violence, and loss of meaning.
Care of the soul requires ongoing attention to every aspect of life. Essentially it is a cultivation of ordinary things in such a way that soul is nurtured and fostered.  The home is a place of daily work.  Tools of housework are very simple yet they are fundamental:  vacuum cleaner, broom, dustmop, soaps, sponges, dishpan, hammer, screwdriver.  Housework is a path of contemplation and if we denigrate the work that is to be done around the house every day, from cooking to doing laundry, we lose our attachment to our immediate world.  There is a close relationship between daily work around the house and responsibility to our natural environment.  We all know that at some level daily work affects character and the overall quality of life, but we usually overlook the way soulfulness can adhere to ordinary housework and the gifts it can bring to the soul.  If we let other people do our ordinary work for us, or if we do it ourselves without care, we might be losing something irreplaceable and eventually experience that missing element as a painful sense of loneliness or homelessness.  It is important to the soul to do our daily chores attentively and with an eye to detail.
The ordinary arts we practice everyday at home are of more importance to the soul than their simplicity might suggest. I also cherish the opportunity to hang clothes on a line outdoors.  The fresh smell, the wet fabrics, the blowing wind, and the drying sun go together to make an experience of nature and culture that is unique and particularly pleasurable for its simplicity.


 Clothes hanging on a line, tossed by the wind, touch upon vitality, the unseen forces of nature, and the deep pleasures of ordinary life.
 ******
DeLoy sent his favorite Clothesline poem:

THE CLOTHESLINE
           
by Marilyn Walker

A clothesline was a news forecast
To neighbors passing by.
There were no secrets you could keep
When clothes were hung to dry.

It also was a friendly link
For neighbors always knew
If company had stopped on by
To spend a night or two.

For then you’d see the fancy sheets
And towels on the line;
You’d see the comp’ny tablecloths
With intricate design.

The line announced a baby’s birth
For folks who lived inside
As brand new infant clothes were hung
So carefully with pride.

The ages of the children could
So readily be known.
By watching how the sizes changed,
You’d know how much they’d grown.

It also told when illness struck,
As extra sheets were hung;
Then nightclothes, and a bathrobe, too,
Haphazardly were strung.

It said, “Gone on vacation now”
When lines hung limp and bare.
It told, “We’re back!” when full lines sagged
With not an inch to spare.

New folks in town were scorned upon
If wash was dingy gray,
As neighbors raised their brows, and looked
Disgustedly away.

But clotheslines now are of the past,
As dryers make work less.
Now what goes on inside a home
Is anybody’s guess.

I really miss that way of life.
It was a friendly sign
When neighbors knew each other best
By what hung on the line!

Clothes hanging on the line in Cabo San Lucas, Mexico


Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Bryce Canyon 2011


CLOMP

I plod laboriously in snowshoes
On the groomed trail;
Amy gracefully and swiftly skies ahead.
 I have the strongest urge to run 
And leap
And skip 
And spin 
And soar through the air;

Clomp.  Clomp.  Clomp. 

Wishing to be light and swift,
Sadly,
Does not make it so.
Clomp.  Clomp.  Clomp.

Still, to have the desire,
Strangely, 
Makes me feel young again
And strong ---
Like I could whirl and twirl . . .

Clomp.  Clomp.  Clomp.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

The Siege Part III - SUMMARY

My brother, DeLoy, the Family Poet Laureate, wrote the following event memorial. 

December 2011
Kaysville's East Wind Storms I and II
By DeLoy H. Esplin, December 6, 2011 

Wind I, a gale terrible and hard,
Damage was done in most every yard;
Roof shingles, house siding, ripped to shreds,
As some slept fitfully in cold beds;
Trees and fences toppled, trees de-topped.
People pondered, can such winds be stopped? 
Wind missiles marred, dented, scratched, and broke.
Some of these deeds were when folks awoke.
Injuries occurred, power lines down,
Severe damage throughout the whole town.
As to cleanup, volunteers rallied,
Saving great costs, yet to be tallied. 
“Thousands of bucks” came bids for repair
As claim adjustors rushed here and there.

How was Wind II
Now that it’s through?
Wind II was mild,
A poor step-child.
*
No, the roofers didn't come this week. A roofer stopped by yesterday and said all the old shingles will have to be removed and the entire roof redone. State Farm said it would be December 23, before they could assess the damage.  How can they do it with a foot of snow on the roof? It's supposed to snow this week--and we're responsible for any water damage.  Insurance companies, you gotta love 'em???
Nate the Agent finally came--for all the good it did.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

The Siege Part II


Monday and Tuesday
I don’t even like the outdoor Christmas lights tonight.
How dare you?
We have extended ourselves these past two days
Trying to clear the litter from our yard
And we are worn out.
DeRay is 77 and has had shingles for over a month;
I am 75 and my knees hurt.
I crawled around on our back lawn picking up
The round prickly balls the neighbor’s trashy
Tree dumped on us.  The rake wouldn’t do the job.
It hasn’t been above 30 degrees for the past
Two days we’ve been out in the yard.
It’s my first experience of raking
With snow on the ground in spots.
We still have 10 or so piles to dispose of tomorrow.
Ed Denny and his son,
Who flew out from Baltimore to help,
Spend two hours last night working
On our satellite dish – two stories high.
He’s hauled a lot of our trash away too.
Even picked some of it up.
It makes me cry.
Such good-hearted people.
Amy’s new Hyundai $2,100 to repair.
DeRay took the van in tonight to get an estimate.
Guess! 
Over $3,100.
Cavalier $1,500.
A roofer came.
He’ll write up a bid.
He said he would be able to work on it this week.
Yes!
Other things.
Don’t even mention Christmas, OK?
It's coming at a bad time this year.
*
“Did you sleep good?
Ed asked me this morning.
“No.”
He grunts then says,
“You just gave me the wrong answer.”
I cannot tell a lie.
Too many things to do;
Too many things to think about to sleep well.
*
“I’m dead,” I whine
when I come in after working out
in the debris-laden yard.
“You’re not dead,” Ed informs me.
“You’re 75 and still alive.”
--a statement made famous
by his grandfather--
That's the first time I've connected
myself to it.
Wasn't it just yesterday
Grandpa was saying it?

Neither of my parents lived to be 75.

Friday, December 2, 2011

The 18-Hour Siege

Horror of Horrors
I forgot to turn the dishwasher on
before I went to bed.
Is that your worst nightmare
to have a dishwasher full of
dirty dishes when the power goes off?
It’s 1:30 AM; the wind just picked up per predictions.
I need to remember to turn the dishwasher on
first thing in the morning, I think.
What if the power is off in the morning?
There is NO question about it.  It will be off.
Things much smaller than East Winds
knock our power out frequently.
We’ve had years of East Wind Experience.
One time in Farmington in about 1964
my mother got the shock of her life
when she saw a wheelbarrow fly across our patio
about 4 feet in the air.
It wasn’t ours.
Clouds hanging on the mountains warn of East Winds.  Note the tree that blocks the mountain range and shades our garden.
So I tread downstairs and turn the dishwasher on
then lie for an hour while the winds howl--
banging, clunking, hitting objects against the house--
hoping against hope the power doesn’t go off
until the dishwasher is finished.

Ed stays in bed as long as possible.
He’s very angry the power is out
and he can’t watch his programs
or listen to his music.
Ed in bed to stay warm.
DeRay, why is there no water in the toilets?
They don’t run on electricity.
Did the wind suck the water out?

The Great East Winds topped our Conifers


Good Luck or Bad Luck?
We moved the utility trailer yesterday
readying the space to park Amy’s old car.
DeRay decided to wait to park it
until he got the oil changed and filled it with gas.
Right where it would have been parked
the top third of three 70-foot conifers crashed.
It would have been totaled.
The treetops scraped the side and rear of the van.
Shingles scraping across the hood
on both the van and Cavalier
did minor damage.
Nevertheless, in auto repair,
there is no minor damage.
Dents and scrapes are costly.
“I wish Amy hadn’t gone to work,” I say to DeRay
as I come downstairs after a sleepless night
“She does too,” he replied.
“A flying garbage can hit her car on Legacy Highway.”
Front fender, driver’s door, bumper, signal light, headlight;
And sadly, the mud guards she paid extra for shattered.
She bought the car last Friday.
The shingles are blowing off our roof.
This is going to be an expensive wind.
Whoops, there goes some aluminum siding.
I put soup on the fireplace to heat up;
Water to boil for herbal tea.
Ed is still in bed – warm.
Grey is the new roof; black is the old roof.  More old than new.
 I’m glad we’re not on Lake Powell.
I don’t know how long this house will stand.
It feels like it’s going to blow to smithereens.
9:42 AM
My clothes line just snapped.
We have watched four big trees blow down
at the Dennys across the street.
Two conifers and two Coronado Lindens.
Dennys across the street.
Two more on this side.
 This raging gale is getting on my nerves.
Lo-caw
Saum-aus-da
Suki-no
Bauv-on-to
Oooohhhmmmm.
I’m still tense.
Message Mix-up
DeRay prayed to get rid of his shingles.
And the shingles on our house fly away.
We divined the 80’ high tree on the north
shading our garden and dropping trash on our lawn
to blow away.
Mighty trees all around it tumbled.
It stands, unscathed.
(Well, one limb fell and crushed our peach tree.)
We could have collected insurance money
if Amy’s Cavalier had been totaled;
Instead a flying garbage can damaged her new car.
What is going on here?  Are we not clear?

And our newspaper didn’t get delivered
or it blew to Timbuktu.

While DeRay is at the Insurance Office,
I go down in the basement
and step in water.
I pick up about 15 carpet squares.
I don’t know where the water is coming from.
“Now we’re getting our basement flooded,”
I whine to Eddy.
“Last time we had that the Ward helped.
That sure made my day.”
Our basement always has to steal the show.
Whenever we have one problem,
it draws attention unto itself
by sucking water in.
Always a different trick.
It turned out to be a leaking filter
so when DeRay gets home,
he turns the water off.
Now we are without electricity and water.
Great.

“Too bad we’re not out of town,” Ed says.
“I’m glad we’re here to protect our stuff.”
(Although there is nothing we can do but let it rip.)
“I’m not,” Ed says, “it’s so boring.”

My first bit of news is when I venture out after noon
to look over the damage.
Karen Roylance tells me the power company says
the power may be off for 48 hours.
Ed reminds us it will get dark early.
“Expects gusts until 10 PM.”
“Wind gusts at 105 mph.”
The Strader home was the most damaged in our neighborhood.  Garage door went through the back window.






Larry Dorius estate on Fairfield
Institute at DATC

As I take pictures,
I hear chain saws already.
I’m surprised I don’t hear a lawnmower,
this is such a meticulous neighborhood.
Some.  Not all.
Not us.

 It’s so vastly quiet.
Eerie.
Now the wind has died down.
No TV.  No telephone.  No dishwasher.
No washer or dryer.  No vacuum.
No beeps, buzzes, squawks, dings, rings.
Just eerie silence
Our ears are not accustomed to stillness.
Except I still have the vibrating ring in my deaf ear.
I wish the power company could fix it.
I think I’ll call them.
Wait!
No telephone.
Cell phone?
I must conserve my battery.

3:30 PM
No mail.
No power.
Are we going to lose everything in the freezers?
I’m a little bored myself.
I could exercise.
I’ve got my i-Pod
but I don’t feel like it.
It will be dark in an hour.
I’ll read.

DeRay started the generator
so we can power the fridge and freezer for an hour or so.
Then he ran to town to buy a replacement filter
to try to fix the basement leak;
also, some oil for our lamps and a chimney
that broke but never was replaced.
and kerosene for the lantern.
Silly us.
Rows and rows of empty shelves
where emergency supplies were just yesterday.
He did get the filter fixed.
Water by 10:30 PM.
Yeah DeRay!

After watching the news,
my sister Shirley called to see if we survived.
“We got our Christmas shopping done,” I brag.
“We thought we were only getting four new tires
on Ed’s car for $650  for Christmas.
Our gifts have expanded:
$1000 deductible for house repairs.
$250 deductible for the van.
$250 deductible for the Cavalier.
Guess we can’t claim the $250 deductible
Amy will have to pay to get her car repaired.
$1,500 Christmas right there.
And then there will be $60 to replace the vents on the trailer.
not covered on house insurance either.
This may be our biggest Christmas ever!”
I think Shirley was impressed
knowing how much we are giving each other
for Christmas.
And we didn’t have to step foot in a store
or surf the Internet.

Without a c-pap machine, DeRay can’t sleep;
Without electricity, the c-pap machine doesn’t work.
Why do you think he was up at 5 AM this morning?
So he prepared to sleep sitting up in front of the fire.
Ed and I piled extra blankets on our beds
and went up to cold bedrooms.
Amy has a gas stove in her bedroom.
At 11:07, the power came one.
An 18-hour siege.
HALLELUJAH, Ed shouts from his bed.

Walking down the warm stairs this morning
With light to see and running water,
I feel the sweetness of rebirth that comes
after mayhem briefly altered our frail existence.

 Now, I must go gather shingles and debris
off the porch and lawns,
at bare minimum.
*
The Cleanup


RaJean's sister and her husband from Morgan cut up their 80' foot fallen tree for firewood.  Then they came over and cut up ours.  Imagine!   Still suffering with the shingles, DeRay could never have done it.  Maybe next spring; maybe not. Dennys picked up and hauled the branches away - after they single handedly (with the help of their son) did their own four trees.  Last night while I was picking up shingles, Kathi walked over and helped me.  Wonderful neighbors.


Fjeldsted's sidewalk after they removed the tree.
High Winds are expected this evening.  We may have been the only Ward in Davis County to hold all 3 hours of church today, only letting out a little early because the power went off.  I think it was because of Eddy.  Everyone else cancelled church to cleanup.
Our Circle, Sunday, December 4, 2011
 


The Butchers


 Nicholls Road - Drop off point